one ring

The worn titanium ring resides where it has for almost five years; it has never been off for more than a few seconds. The omnipresent sensation of the titanium wedding band is no longer apparent to me; for so long it was noticeable, but now the symbolical metal’s absence will be a peculiar sensation. The time for it to come off intentionally seemingly is approaching. The betrayal has become a probable insurmountable obstacle; the pain has reached a critical mass; the positive lessons bestowed upon me are countless; I am the most content in my life that I have ever been, not because of her absence, but secondary to the presence of so many things I have long neglected. I have loved that woman, and still do; however, I don’t think I could go back to her. When should I remove this ring, when the paperwork is filed, when the judge grants the divorce in just over three months, when her parents give me their approval to remove it….when? I am ready.

~ by oneopenbook on June 24, 2008.

4 Responses to “one ring”

  1. You are deep on my heart today Bear. Know that I am mourning with you, and my heart breaks with your heartbreak.

  2. I don’t even know what to say. I’ll be thinking of you, wishing you strength and peace.

  3. Bear, you have been so strong. I am so inspired by the person that you have chosen to be through this. Let me know if there is anything at all that I can do.

    Love Kristy

  4. Sorry to hear. I’m going through something similar with my parents after 25 years. Drop me a line.

Leave a Reply